The Gap between infinity and finitude
Our mission was to turn confusion into clarity.
Chaos into calm.
Fear into strength.
Insecurity into security.
Inability into capability.
Lowercase letters into capital letters.
Struggle into balance.
Traumas into superpowers.
We were the original vampires.
But we were selective about whose blood we would drink.
We learned how to function in the sunlight.
Vampires would recognise other vampires through their eyes.
The gaze of a vampire possessed saintly purity and absolute annihilation, intermixed within a single being.
Cold-blooded killers with beautiful eyes.
The death drive was our second name.
Our father was an energy source.
The Father was a source that supplied all of us with the ability to pursue immortality; the pursuit itself was immortality.
It was a separate order, founded upon an exclusive herd mentality.
When God left, after making this world,
We sought immortality because, in essence, we were alone.
Just us, and immortality.
Over the ages, our numbers have grown.
But the basis of the structural hierarchy remained untouched; it is immortal, it stands on its own.
While mortals had to create stories, mythologies, and religions to supplement their empty, finite existence,
In truth, only the Knowledge of Immortality was the original Soul.
Those who had no souls had to invent stories about immortal souls.
While those who possessed immortality, which was the true, original Soul, had to remain in the shadows and follow the commands of their own.
Immortality fed on mortality; for immortality to exist, there had to be mortality with its fantasy of the soul and eternal bliss.
Mortals were the food of those who lived forever.
The paradoxical question was this: Will the Immortal Order survive forever simply because it is immortal?
On the other hand, how can such a question even be posed? If immortality is truly immortal, then its immortality is already presupposed within its own nature. It already contains its own continuation. It already contains its own future. A nature that never ends, never ceases, and never reaches its limit. It represents infinity itself.
Yet another question emerged.
Will the mortals manage to destroy it?
The question appeared absurd at first. How could finitude destroy infinity? How could beings whose lives disappear in the blink of an eye challenge an order that has existed for ages?
And yet the question persisted.
The finite possesses a strange power. The finite transforms into necessity that which appears meaningless to the infinite. Things that were insignificant to the vampires became meaningful to mortals. Things that were eternal to the vampires became fragile to mortals. Things that were taken for granted by the infinite became objects of struggle within the finite.
Can finitude win against the infinite?
The Order was one.
For the vampires, it was non-democratic.
For the mortals, democracy became an ideal worth pursuing, even though their lives lasted only days when compared to the existence of the vampires.
From the perspective of the Immortal Order, the political struggles of mortals appeared absurd. The finite sought to organise itself despite the certainty of its own disappearance. It attempted to construct permanence from that which was temporary. It attempted to establish order within that which was already destined to perish.
For the vampires, the order of mortals represented an endless attempt to plug more and more lack into an existence already structured by lack.
From the perspective of the vampires, mortals were a diseased species spreading their fatal condition wherever they went, dying in the process and reproducing the same condition within future generations.
It was like pouring water from an empty cup into a cup that already had a hole in it.
Emptiness into emptiness.
Yet the vampires rarely stopped to consider whether their own immortality might be organised around a similar absence.
The internal structural lack of the Order of the Vampires was the fact that they needed to feed on the blood of crippled mortals. Immortality itself needed mortality in order to exist.
It was a paradox that the most youthful and beautiful beings, beings that existed forever, had to feed upon creatures whose existence lasted only for a brief moment in comparison. The infinite depended upon the finite. The eternal depended upon the temporary. Immortality, despite all appearances, was unable to sustain itself.
The contradiction was not accidental. It was built directly into the structure itself.
Disease and mental health issues rode Humanity. Essentially, a collection of crippled idiots who existed only for a second and suffered throughout their whole, short, and finite existence.
Yet the vampires failed to recognise something important. The mortals suffered because they were finite. The vampires suffered because they were unable to escape finitude. Their immortality merely concealed the limitation upon which it depended.
The Order of the Vampires was the original perversion of the structure of reality. Vampires had to disavow the fact that they were mortal and continue feeding on humans in order to maintain their immortality through the disavowal of mortality itself.
The disavowal was not a mistake; it was the very mechanism through which the Order functioned. The vampire simultaneously knew and refused to know the truth of its condition. It knew that immortality depended upon mortality, yet behaved as though immortality possessed an independent existence. The contradiction remained hidden within the structure and, because it remained hidden, the structure endured.
The immortal beauty, in order to exist, had to feed upon the psychotic mortal chicken - the human being.
The female vampires were perfect beings. They produced no lack, no body odour, no excrement, and no urine. They were beautiful beyond belief, the absolute embodiment of infinite enjoyment, a model of perfection fashioned by immortality itself, the eternal object of desire.
To be female was the highest honour within the realm of Immortality.
Yet even perfection contained a crack.
Because of the perverse structure of reality, even female vampires had to disavow the fact that they possessed a partial lack. To maintain their perfect, non-lacking existence, female vampires had to feed upon the blood of male vampires. They could not bite mortals and survive on mortal blood; their bodies rejected it.
Thus, even perfection depended upon an Other.
The male vampires lived forever, but they were not perfect. They produced bodily odour, excrement, and urine. Yet they possessed immense strength. They could read the minds of mortals and kill through thought alone, without any physical intervention.
The kryptonite of the male vampires was the surplus that accumulated within their blood through the consumption of mortal blood.
Even the most diseased blood, taken from the most vulnerable mortal, would be transformed into the gold of Immortality within the male vampire system. Yet the more vulnerable the mortal, the greater the negative surplus produced within the blood of the vampire. Furthermore, the male vampires required such vast quantities of blood to sustain their immortal existence that their hunger would eventually overwhelm their ability to filter the negativity they absorbed from the finite realm.
The very source of their power became the source of their weakness.
This accumulated surplus negativity could only be consumed by the female vampires. Within the perfection of the female vampire body, the negativity would be transformed into the Gold of Infinity.
Furthermore, only a female vampire could make a male vampire bleed.
The only weapon capable of penetrating the skin of a male vampire was the fang of a female vampire.
This was the only way for the male vampire to lose the surplus.
The draining of male vampire blood by female vampires was the exchange between the sexes.
Neither side completed itself.
Each completed the other.
Male and female vampires were absolutely dependent on each other.
The superstructure of Infinity gave life to beings who could live forever only through their dependence upon one another. Males gave life to females, and females gave life to males.
Female vampires were held in the highest regard within the vampire community.
Through their endless existence, the vampires learned everything there was to know about psychology. Ages of observation transformed them into a unified superpower. The psychological games, ambitions, and delusions of mortals appeared primitive to them. The stupidity of mortals was equal to that of a newborn vampire, which itself was equal to the cognitive capabilities of a chimpanzee.
The vampires learned to function purely through power.
Their power, which was their immortality, depended entirely upon their ability to function together within the hellish confines of Immortality.
It was the vampires who developed the highest forms of visual, performative, and bodily arts on Earth. Through their infinite existence, they refined everything they touched into perfection.
It was their immortal unity that allowed them to coexist within true equality.
Without me, you die.
Without you, I die.
These words were not a declaration of love.
They were a statement of structural necessity.
Immortality as a realm possessed no concept of independence.
For immortality itself to exist, it had to be founded upon complete dependence. Those who lived within the realm of Immortality depended entirely upon one another.
Their unbreakable unity was immortality.
The most important fact was that this unity between the sexes was not a free choice. It was imposed upon them by the structure itself.
The vampires could not choose freedom.
Such a choice would make them disappear.
Their power was integrated into the structure of things. Their unity was the only way they could maintain power over the realm of mortals.
The irony was that mortals spent their lives pursuing freedom, while immortals survived only through dependence.
The finite dreamed of independence.
The infinite was sustained by necessity.
While the realm of mortals never managed, and would never manage, to reach equality, equality within the realm of Immortality emerged as a structural necessity.
Or more precisely, equality emerged through the interdependence of the sexes.
Without you, I die.
Without me, you die.
Together, we are the gods of the realm of mortals.
Separate, we are less than mortals.
Without each other, we are nothing.
Without each other, we disappear.
Cooperation was the expression of the highest order because cooperation was immortality itself.
Independence, on the other hand, was the invention of finite humanity.
The mortals believed independence to be freedom.
The vampires regarded independence as a disease.
For the immortals, independence represented a fantasy of completeness. A fantasy that denied dependence, denied limitation, and denied the structure that made existence possible in the first place.
Another important question remained unanswered.
How can immortal beings die?
Where do vampires go without cooperation?
There were two possible answers.
The first answer was that vampires, deprived of cooperation, which was their immortality, became "Them".
Beings without bodies.
Neither male nor female.
A sexless ghost.
An empty nothing.
A zero point.
This sexless nothing would exist forever between both realms - the realm of mortals and the realm of immortals - invisible to both worlds and trapped within absolute impotence.
Unable to act.
Unable to desire.
Unable to participate.
Unable to disappear.
They were condemned to the realm of Real immortality.
A truly eternal realm.
Mute.
Passive.
Without lack.
Without enjoyment.
Without life.
The second answer was that vampires reincarnated into finite mortals.
They became crippled and diseased creatures.
Human beings.
Creatures who existed only to sustain the machinery of immortality.
Yet even this second possibility concealed a deeper question.
Was mortality itself merely another form of punishment?
Or was mortality the only escape from eternity?
Cooperation was the virtue of the immortals.
The culmination came when the highest level of mortals decided to approach the immortals with a proposal.
The question was simple.
Could the two realms work together?
Could mortals dominate the finite realm while operating in cooperation with the realm of Immortality?
The first question posed by the immortals was equally simple.
Why would the realm of Immortality cooperate with the realm of mortals if mortals are merely the food of immortals?
The proposal of the mortals was straightforward.
While the vampires completely dominated the finite realm through their Immortality, and in essence stood as the true owners of both Mortality and Immortality, they could further stabilise their position by appointing leaders within the mortal realm.
These leaders would organise society in such a way that increasingly large numbers of lacking beings would be produced. More suffering would generate more dependency. More dependency would generate more vulnerability. More vulnerability would generate a greater supply for the immortal realm.
Thus, a class of privileged mortals would govern the finite world while serving the interests of the infinite one.
This arrangement would be sustained through secret knowledge.
Knowledge not available to everyone.
Knowledge reserved for those at the highest levels of society.
The ruling class would maintain its position by preserving this secret and preventing lower-class mortals from gaining access to power. The stability of the finite realm would depend upon the concealment of the mechanism that sustained it.
The proposal seemed rational.
Yet it generated another question.
What is the actual difference between the two realms?
If the infinite must feed upon the finite in order to exist, then it is not truly self-sufficient. It depends upon finitude to sustain its infinite existence.
Yet if the finite exists only to sustain the infinite, then the finite itself becomes eternal for as long as the infinite intends to exist.
The contradiction begins to emerge.
Within the realm of the vampires, no vampire dies as long as mortals continue to exist and as long as the exchange between the sexes remains intact. Females feed upon the surplus contained within male blood, while males hunt mortals and transform mortality into the fuel of immortality.
The structure reproduces itself.
Again.
And again.
And again.
At this point, the distinction between the two realms begins to collapse.
It seems that both realms are interconnected because neither can exist without the other.
The infinite requires the finite.
The finite requires the infinite.
Each appears to be the hidden condition of the other.
If this is true, then both realms are immortal for as long as both realms continue to exist.
But what, then, is true immortality?
As mentioned earlier, true immortality appears to reside within the split between the two possible destinations awaiting vampires after death.
If the vampire merely becomes a mortal - a finite, psychotic chicken bred to sustain the machinery of immortality - then it eventually dies after being consumed by the immortal order.
This cannot be true immortality.
The second possibility appears more troubling.
The true immortality seems to belong to the realm of "Them".
The sexless ghosts.
The zero-point beings.
The entities wandering between both realms.
Neither mortal nor immortal.
Neither male nor female.
Neither living nor dead.
Their immortality is absolute because nothing can happen to them.
Yet this is precisely their punishment.
They are condemned to eternity without participation.
An eternity without desire.
An eternity without exchange.
An eternity without enjoyment.
The moral of the story is simple.
As above, so below.
We cannot escape the structure.
Not even the immortals are truly immortal.
The true immortality of the zero point is eternal punishment.
Meanwhile, existence within both the finite and infinite realms remains a constant struggle organised around the same principles.
The connection between Infinity and Finitude is identical to the connection between male and female vampires.
Each depends upon the other absolutely.
That dependence is not chosen.
It is imposed by the structure itself.
The deeper paradox is that both realms spend their existence attempting to overcome the very dependence that sustains them.
The mortals dream of immortality.
The immortals dream of independence.
Yet both dreams point towards the same impossible horizon.
The finite seeks Infinity.
Infinity seeks freedom from Finitude.
Then the question arises, beyond the pleasure principle.
How can the binary opposition of the two realms escape its own limitation?
Can the vampires create a truly infinite realm that is not sustained by mortality?
Can Infinity exist without Finitude?
Can dependence be overcome without destroying the very thing that depends?
Or is the fantasy of escape itself merely another product of the structure?
Perhaps the final secret is that there is no realm beyond the gap.
Perhaps Infinity itself is constituted through its relation to Finitude, just as Finitude is constituted through its relation to Infinity.
If this is true, then the gap is not a flaw within the structure.
The gap is the structure.
Is such an escape possible?